After Christmas my boyfriend of 5.5 years broke up with me. I haven’t taken it well. I’ve been to the doctors who has been great and my boss gave me extra hours to keep me occupied. Everyone at work has been great too. Some of the people there have been the only ones who have made me smile and laugh recently and even eat a little more. Little steps.
Rather than obsessing and crying over my lost future, I’ve been trying very hard to come up with my own, solo plans. I’ve signed up to a half-marathon at the end of March. That way I HAVE to eat. I cannot run if I don’t eat. Training has not been going very well as I’m incredibly weak from not eating and losing so much weight and due to my lowered immune system I have a cold. I haven’t had a cold in about 2 years!
|Training in the mud|
I was not a fan of Christmas before my heart got broken and now I really, really do not like it so I’ve decided to cancel Christmas 2014 and disappear. This Christmas will be spent in Australia. In fact, I think I might stay there for a year and work. I have nothing set in stone so I really need to get my head down and start planning. I was going travelling on my own before I met my boyfriend so I guess it’s back to square one except this time I have quite bad social anxiety. Who knows, perhaps this will cure it?
So there we have it. That is why I have been away from the blogging world. Sleep, go to work, try to sleep, repeat. When I am feeling a bit better then hopefully Tea in the Tub will be back up and running as per usual.